Unsaid Feelings Of A Guy

Here I am watching her from a distance. I came here with our common best friend, Ujual and told him go meet her. I know she would enquire about me and so I told Ujual to tell her that I couldn’t come because of an urgent office work. I also told Ujual to give her blessings from my side. He forced me a lot to meet her but I didn’t wanted her to see my face. At last, he accepted and left with a heavy heart. 

It’s her marriage today. A new phase of life is going to start for her. Yes I loved her and I still love her but the twist is, she is getting married to some other guy. She too loves me and I know it. Her parents didn’t accepted our love because they didn’t believe in love. 

She would always tell me to not keep any hope of our future and I would smile. I would smile because I wouldn’t have anything to say. My hope never died till today. Today I got to know that whatever God has written in our fate is bound to happen. 
She told me to never leave her and I promised her the same. I still have kept her promise as I am still around her. All these years I have been always by her side but it seems she is leaving me alone now but then I remember that it was I who promised to never leave her alone. She never promised to not  leave me because both of us knew about our relationship’s future. She has done nothing wrong with me.

I still remember that I hurt her numerous times but she never left me. I still remember she would buy expensive gifts for me and I would scold her for it but then I had to accept it seeing her innocent face. I still remember how she made puppy like face and then I would pull her cheeks. I still remember our late night Whatsapp chats that brought us more close to each other. I still remember I shared each and everything with her. I still remember her sweet smile that would change my bad mood into good instantly. I still remember her kohl laced eyes that would talk more than her. I still remember our silly talks. I still remember how she would correct my mistakes in english. I still remember our first kiss.  
I always dreamt of marrying her in this wedding outfit but dreams are meant to be just dreams.

I am not angry with her. She has done nothing wrong by marrying some other guy. She never promised to marry me and I have to accept it. Maybe her parents have chosen the right guy for her or maybe not I don’t know. She just made me promise one thing that after her marriage I too would get married but I have to break this promise cause I can’t destroy another girl’s life just for the sake of my marriage. 
Ujual came in between the marriage ceremony to me and I told him that I can’t bear being here anymore. He understood my pain and we left that place in my car….
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