You know diary what’s worse than feeling lonely?
It’s feeling alone even when you have got friends around you. When you have no one with you and feel alone, that’s perfectly alright but when you have friends with you but you still feel alone, that feeling is very tough to deal with.
You have that one person in your life with whom you share every little detail of life, with whom you are so comfortable, with whom you can be yourself and then suddenly one day they aren’t there in your life. You suddenly realise you are on your own but this realisation is such hard hitting that you try to forget this realisation. This realisation shakes up your whole life. From being one of the happiest individual of the world, suddenly you transition to one of the sad individuals of the world.
Suddenly the essence of you life is lost. You don’t know what to do with your life and with whom to share your feelings. Your friends don’t seem to understand your feelings. Your real smile gets lost. You lose the sense of feeling happy. You lose the sense of feeling the minute things of life. You just smile at your handicapped state.
Moreover you can’t share those intimate feelings with them. Every single romantic song reminds you of them
Every single place where you met them reminds you of them. The more you try to forget everything and move on, the more you find it harder. Their memories keep splashing like the sea waves on the shores of your mind.
You stop believing in love and feelings. You stop sharing anything. You start talking much less. You encapsulate yourself within you. Your personality changes from a seemingly extrovert person to the most introvert person. You fail to see fun in everything.
You just…. (at loss of words, sorry)
P.S – Just wanted to share what I was feeling deep inside 🙂
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