Real Feelings – Part 4

​Dear diary, 

You know I am so stuck in my life right now that I don’t know what’s happening. Like some people have decided something to do and have made in their mind that either this happens or that happens.

Hell, I don’t know anything. I don’t even have an idea. My life seems directionless. I have lost all hopes and just flowing along the way life takes me. Life ahead seems like a dark road to me. 

My mind is filled up with so many questions. 

Will I get placed in college placement drive? 

What if I don’t get placed through college placement drive? 

What other options I have with me then? 

Even if I get placed, would I be able to make her parents believe to wait for few years? 

What if they don’t want to wait? 

Hell, what if don’t even agree for us? 

Can I write a novel all by myself? 

Can I have writing as a full time profession?

Where to start then? 

How to find a publisher? 

How to write such a long story?

And then here’s my new found love – Blogging 

I want to post everyday but am I going overboard by posting everyday? 

Is anyone pissed off by my regular posting? 

Is anyone really reading what I write?

Am I doing a good job with my blog? 

Are my writing really appreciable? 

Ufff… Never been this tense before in my life

How? When? What? Where? 

Thoughts are hopping like a kangaroo in my mind.

P.S – Every post I have posted till day has been written by me on my phone and it’s so much difficult to write on phone. Moreover, I haven’t changed my theme for WP. Even, haven’t been able to browse my blog through PC. My laptop’s keyboard is a master of his own feelings as my laptop is now 6 years old. I don’t want to buy a new one from my parents money now. So, I am delaying it. Out of words. 

28 thoughts on “Real Feelings – Part 4

  1. You’re so cool! I do not suppose I have read through something like that before. So nice to find someone with a few original thoughts on this subject. Seriously.. thank you for starting this up. This web site is something that is required on the web, someone with a bit of originality!


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