Sincere Feelings

​I never wanted to leave you cause I know you’re the best thing happened to me… 

I am so sincerely devoted to you and the love I have for you…

I wanted to marry you and get old with you…

I never wanted to have such a pious relationship get broken down because of society norms… 

I am trying my best to fill the void you left in my life but in vain…

I always feel like the tears are just on the brink of coming out… 

I don’t know how to be at peace…

I am trying to accept this but my heart is rejecting it… 

I am in a state of constant flux… 

One day, I am perfectly fine and the other day, I am totally lost… 

One day, I hate you for not putting up a fight and the other day, my love for you overtakes that hate… 

I can’t even hate you so that I can forget you and move on… 

You sort of controlled my moodiness but with you gone now, I am more moody than ever… 

You understood my unsaid words… 

You were the one who calmed me down… 

You were the one who listened to me patiently… 

You know I always need someone to share my feelings with and you were that person for me…

You were such an integral part of my life that now I am struggling to live it as before… 

I am not strong like you…

My feelings for you is over powering my will power…

I am hurt because you broke my hope but then I get reminded that you never gave me any hope or promises… 

I tried to be angry on you, to hate you but in vain, for my love for you is so vast and deep that it dissolves these feelings completely into it… 

I tried to vent out my anger by blaming you but then I felt more bad… 

The things that made me happy don’t make me happy now… 

My happiness was because of you… 

You always knew how pious, sincere and true my love for you is… 

You made me feel so loved and now that you’ve left, I am struggling to feel loved again… 

You are my drug… 

I have hidden myself behind a facade but even that’s not giving me peace which you provided me just by your presence… 

I can’t hate you and I can’t stop loving you… 

Tell me please what do I do??? 

I am torn between my feelings…

तुम्हे भूलने में मुझे कुछ वक़्त लगेगा और वही कुछ वक़्त सारी ज़िन्दगी है मेरी। 

It would take some time for me to forget you and that some time is my entire life. 

P.S – It’s such a bane to feel love so deeply.

Daily prompt – Sincere